new year

Its been two weeks since new year already so i know this is late.

reflections:

2008. What more can i say, I was in and out of hospital, suffered under chemotherapy, operations, injections, but amidst all the suffering and pain I could still be happy at times, because of the people who supported and stayed beside me, and i thank them from the bottom of my heart.

Now I have officially finished chemotherapy treatment, done the last lumbar puncture last Thursday. Hopefully after all that is done, I can win this battle. With cancer however, nothing is sure, but I am glad that I will have a chance to step foot in college next month. Thank you professor Tan at KK for bearing, and treating me.

Looking back, I'm really surprised at how brave I am. The bravest experience was when they cut open my chest to insert a port into my chest that connects to the heart. It was all done when I was awake okay! I could feel the surgeon cutting open my chest and the tube going deeper and deeper till it reached my heart, which was like beating at lightspeed! It wasn't really painful, but it was bloody and traumatizing. Okay just kidding it wasn't, actually at that time, i even found it quite an interesting experience.

Then came chemo. Which was unbearable. Many people ask me what it feels like.. I used to say it was undescribable, but i found a nice analogy. If you have ever sat in one of those sampans, and got seasick, multiply that by about 4, plus the worst headache you have ever felt, multiply that by 10, and then play golf for 2 days nonstop, that would roughly be it.. There was even a point where you could feel you brain ratllling inside your head due to the lack of cerebrospinal fluid.

Of course in 2008 i learnt how to cook too, play pool better, and advanced my mathematical knowledge a little... I got closer to some friends, distanced from most, and played a hell lot of games.

2008 i saw how strong i was, how nice some people can be, how mean other people can be. It was not a good year for sure, but nonetheless it had its rewards, more of like lessons actually.

My new year resolutions.

To be happy.
To get into cjc.
To play pool every week.
To master abstract algebra.
To slim down 10kg.
To learn how to cook sambal kangkong.
To complete all my rpg's
To learn driving.
Not to let JC work take over my life like many other people.
To expand the TPA
To be a master.

hahahaha

One more year to grow, to mature, to reach out to the stars and chase our dreams.