Last IT/BMA

This shall be (hopefully) one of my last cancer posts.

Today was my final intrathecal and bone marrow aspiration procedure. Was quite apprehensive as it was like almost 2 years since I did the last one. And my friends would know I always had lots of problem with this procedure. I hate the feeling of the needle searching and poking in your back, and the worse part is that soemtimes they would not get the right spot after multiple times so they would have to reinsert the needle. I think my record was like 6 times before they could get it.

But even after the procedure, there would be severe after effects like headache and nausea and backache. There was once i was bedridden for more than 2 weeks after a particularly bad one because the fluids in my god-knows-whats-the-name spinal cord area were disturbed, causing severe headaches and backaches whenever I tried to sit up.

Actually what most people do not know is that during the later stages of my treatment, I was so scared that I often escaped from the hospital and wanted to give up treatment, effectively opting for euthanasia.

Of course, that didn't happen (or else I wouldn't be here writing this post today) thanks to my family encouragement and a particular social worker.

SO anyways, about a month ago when Prof Tan said I had to go for the last BMA and IT, it was like deja vu all over again. And when i woke up today suddenly the feelings of fear and flight came back lol.

But I decided that this time was different cause I'm bigger and older and wiser and stronger! So I decided to randomly spam my JC classmates with sms to ask for support. (JC because I knew my poly friend would still be sleeping XD) I expected them to give a one time reply like "Dun worry you'll be fine" kind of thing but that was okay because something was better than nothing.

But then, at my darkest hour of hopelessness and despair....

HALOGIRL APPEARED!!!

Actually I'm fucking touched cause despite being busy she still tried her best to encourage me all the way from like 10am till I went in for the procedure like at 1pm. And after that still got customer support till 7.

And so from the most abysmal abyss of my blood pumping organ, I sincerely thank her.

Anyway the procedure went damm well and I'm having like zero side effects, which surprises me honestly. I expected something like at least a headache or some nausea but there nothing!

So yeah if the result of todays test are good I'll be officially off maintanence drugs which is like...

----To prevent the author from becoming too emo, this blog post shall stop here----