I'm starting to get sick of my deteriorating pool skills. Sure, i can break and run out more often now, but somehow, I'm losing the feel and confidence of my younger days. Perhaps its the year long cancer break, or maybe pool is a young man's game. But I'm afraid right now, I'm no longer a master.
Today i got beaten at icez pool by someone who was lousier than me. Giving your opponent to win 3 racks in a row to win the match when you're on the hill stings like a bitch. But more importantly, I'm gravely upset by the fact that I do not have the confidence to win even someone who doesn't really know the game well. I think I'm becoming too trained, too cautious, too scared of losing.
Well like theres only one thing left for me to do now, train, go back in a month, and thrash the fuck outta him.
Monday, January 19, 2009
Saturday, January 17, 2009
My name is Joey
Went to Icez pool at Kovan on Wednesday to meet up with soomin and darren to play a bit of pool. No actually my main reason was to sign up for the pool competition that is going to be held tomorrow. Wish me luck.
Part of me actually wants to go to SJC cause a lot of my friends are there and its near my house, not to mention near the bowling and pool centre too. If i go to SR i think i would have a comfortable time. Not neccesarily a good time, but a comfortable one.
For the most part though, i want to go to CJC. Change of environment, get to know some new people, get a new life. Sick of the old life, sick of the old Weizhou, tired of Darren and SM.. No hard feelings here, just a thought that distance would make us better friends.
A fresh start, a new beginning, a better life.
Please call me Joey from now on.
Part of me actually wants to go to SJC cause a lot of my friends are there and its near my house, not to mention near the bowling and pool centre too. If i go to SR i think i would have a comfortable time. Not neccesarily a good time, but a comfortable one.
For the most part though, i want to go to CJC. Change of environment, get to know some new people, get a new life. Sick of the old life, sick of the old Weizhou, tired of Darren and SM.. No hard feelings here, just a thought that distance would make us better friends.
A fresh start, a new beginning, a better life.
Please call me Joey from now on.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
new year
Its been two weeks since new year already so i know this is late.
reflections:
2008. What more can i say, I was in and out of hospital, suffered under chemotherapy, operations, injections, but amidst all the suffering and pain I could still be happy at times, because of the people who supported and stayed beside me, and i thank them from the bottom of my heart.
Now I have officially finished chemotherapy treatment, done the last lumbar puncture last Thursday. Hopefully after all that is done, I can win this battle. With cancer however, nothing is sure, but I am glad that I will have a chance to step foot in college next month. Thank you professor Tan at KK for bearing, and treating me.
Looking back, I'm really surprised at how brave I am. The bravest experience was when they cut open my chest to insert a port into my chest that connects to the heart. It was all done when I was awake okay! I could feel the surgeon cutting open my chest and the tube going deeper and deeper till it reached my heart, which was like beating at lightspeed! It wasn't really painful, but it was bloody and traumatizing. Okay just kidding it wasn't, actually at that time, i even found it quite an interesting experience.
Then came chemo. Which was unbearable. Many people ask me what it feels like.. I used to say it was undescribable, but i found a nice analogy. If you have ever sat in one of those sampans, and got seasick, multiply that by about 4, plus the worst headache you have ever felt, multiply that by 10, and then play golf for 2 days nonstop, that would roughly be it.. There was even a point where you could feel you brain ratllling inside your head due to the lack of cerebrospinal fluid.
Of course in 2008 i learnt how to cook too, play pool better, and advanced my mathematical knowledge a little... I got closer to some friends, distanced from most, and played a hell lot of games.
2008 i saw how strong i was, how nice some people can be, how mean other people can be. It was not a good year for sure, but nonetheless it had its rewards, more of like lessons actually.
My new year resolutions.
To be happy.
To get into cjc.
To play pool every week.
To master abstract algebra.
To slim down 10kg.
To learn how to cook sambal kangkong.
To complete all my rpg's
To learn driving.
Not to let JC work take over my life like many other people.
To expand the TPA
To be a master.
hahahaha
One more year to grow, to mature, to reach out to the stars and chase our dreams.
reflections:
2008. What more can i say, I was in and out of hospital, suffered under chemotherapy, operations, injections, but amidst all the suffering and pain I could still be happy at times, because of the people who supported and stayed beside me, and i thank them from the bottom of my heart.
Now I have officially finished chemotherapy treatment, done the last lumbar puncture last Thursday. Hopefully after all that is done, I can win this battle. With cancer however, nothing is sure, but I am glad that I will have a chance to step foot in college next month. Thank you professor Tan at KK for bearing, and treating me.
Looking back, I'm really surprised at how brave I am. The bravest experience was when they cut open my chest to insert a port into my chest that connects to the heart. It was all done when I was awake okay! I could feel the surgeon cutting open my chest and the tube going deeper and deeper till it reached my heart, which was like beating at lightspeed! It wasn't really painful, but it was bloody and traumatizing. Okay just kidding it wasn't, actually at that time, i even found it quite an interesting experience.
Then came chemo. Which was unbearable. Many people ask me what it feels like.. I used to say it was undescribable, but i found a nice analogy. If you have ever sat in one of those sampans, and got seasick, multiply that by about 4, plus the worst headache you have ever felt, multiply that by 10, and then play golf for 2 days nonstop, that would roughly be it.. There was even a point where you could feel you brain ratllling inside your head due to the lack of cerebrospinal fluid.
Of course in 2008 i learnt how to cook too, play pool better, and advanced my mathematical knowledge a little... I got closer to some friends, distanced from most, and played a hell lot of games.
2008 i saw how strong i was, how nice some people can be, how mean other people can be. It was not a good year for sure, but nonetheless it had its rewards, more of like lessons actually.
My new year resolutions.
To be happy.
To get into cjc.
To play pool every week.
To master abstract algebra.
To slim down 10kg.
To learn how to cook sambal kangkong.
To complete all my rpg's
To learn driving.
Not to let JC work take over my life like many other people.
To expand the TPA
To be a master.
hahahaha
One more year to grow, to mature, to reach out to the stars and chase our dreams.
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