Long anger post...
I most hate people who think or consider too much before doing something. They make sure every shit little thing that can be taken care of is taken care of before they do something. They call it responsibility, but in fact they are just being cowards. These are the people who think before every move and don't like to take their chances. Most of the time, these people are highly educated.
Maybe it is because these people have too many things. The more you have, the more you want to safeguard what you have, and the more ham ci you become. What I cannot tolerate is their inherent fussiness. They have to make sure that every spot on the chair, table, plate, utensil is wiped before sitting down to have a meal.
So I don't care about anything or anyone before I do something. Irresponsible? I'm just not afraid to do what I like whenever I like. Regardless of what other people think, your world has only one person in it. Yourself. You only live your life once, entrapped in the shell that you call yourself. As a conscoius being, thats all that matters. All other things outside are external stimuli that is not you, and that you can't feel no matter how hard you try.
The people that i hate most, think about all the external stuff that is not related to them, take care of all external stimuli which is really not needed at all, and spend a lot of time on bullshit. In this life, you are only responsible to one person, and that is yourself. In a more philosophical question, how do you even if these external stimuli are real, for all you know we are living in the matrix and in the end you end up worrying about something that really doesn't exist.
Even if it does exist, life is too short to be bothered by minor details. Which is why whenever i feel like doing something fun or i feel that i want to do, i will do it regardless of any opposition or concerns. Problems will always be there, why solve them today when you can relax first and solve them tomorrow? The most important thing in life is to have fun.
Every time happiness is forfeited for worries and concerns, it means one less moment of happiness in your life. How many people can carelessly skip schoolwork to play a video game, scold the unreasonable teacher "fuck you" or walk into a poolroom betting 5 dollars on every pool game with hustlers and end up losing $100+ in a single night at the age of 17? It is easy to follow rules, but true joy and the meaning of life comes from breaking them.
It is risk taking and adventure seeking that brings about exciting and surprising moments in life. Ten years from now, you are not going to remember fondly how you cared about everyone when planning for a party, or how you did all of your homework during the holidays. More likely, you will remember , with laughter, how you stole your parents money and got discovered. A life with everything well thought out of and planned is just not as invigorating, fun and interesting as an unexpected one.
Do what you want to do, whenever you want to do, because it might be the last chance you have. And don't ever look back, don't ever regret because it was fun. Life has not many ten years, the most important thing is to be carefree.
