Last IT/BMA

This shall be (hopefully) one of my last cancer posts.

Today was my final intrathecal and bone marrow aspiration procedure. Was quite apprehensive as it was like almost 2 years since I did the last one. And my friends would know I always had lots of problem with this procedure. I hate the feeling of the needle searching and poking in your back, and the worse part is that soemtimes they would not get the right spot after multiple times so they would have to reinsert the needle. I think my record was like 6 times before they could get it.

But even after the procedure, there would be severe after effects like headache and nausea and backache. There was once i was bedridden for more than 2 weeks after a particularly bad one because the fluids in my god-knows-whats-the-name spinal cord area were disturbed, causing severe headaches and backaches whenever I tried to sit up.

Actually what most people do not know is that during the later stages of my treatment, I was so scared that I often escaped from the hospital and wanted to give up treatment, effectively opting for euthanasia.

Of course, that didn't happen (or else I wouldn't be here writing this post today) thanks to my family encouragement and a particular social worker.

SO anyways, about a month ago when Prof Tan said I had to go for the last BMA and IT, it was like deja vu all over again. And when i woke up today suddenly the feelings of fear and flight came back lol.

But I decided that this time was different cause I'm bigger and older and wiser and stronger! So I decided to randomly spam my JC classmates with sms to ask for support. (JC because I knew my poly friend would still be sleeping XD) I expected them to give a one time reply like "Dun worry you'll be fine" kind of thing but that was okay because something was better than nothing.

But then, at my darkest hour of hopelessness and despair....

HALOGIRL APPEARED!!!

Actually I'm fucking touched cause despite being busy she still tried her best to encourage me all the way from like 10am till I went in for the procedure like at 1pm. And after that still got customer support till 7.

And so from the most abysmal abyss of my blood pumping organ, I sincerely thank her.

Anyway the procedure went damm well and I'm having like zero side effects, which surprises me honestly. I expected something like at least a headache or some nausea but there nothing!

So yeah if the result of todays test are good I'll be officially off maintanence drugs which is like...

----To prevent the author from becoming too emo, this blog post shall stop here----

Back from Shanghai

Back after 5 days! Shanghai was nice. Lazy to write a full essay so I'll just sum it up:

Likes :

- Pretty girls.

- Hot girls.

- Cute girls.

-Damm Good HaoLeDi KTV.

• 20 SGD for whole night 11:30 till 6:00am
  
• sounds system's awesome
  
• controls damm good- can adjust air con, change the lighting ambience, playback clapping and whistling sounds for yourself or your frens hahaha. And can boo them too.
  
• Plasma 42 inch TV
  
• Choose song using a computer which is damm fast and easy
  
• room is big

-Everything is big and spacious and you really get the feeling of freedom cause cab's cheap, can go anywhere you want.

-People are generally nice and helpful.

-(Commoner)things are generally very cheap.

-every road and street has lotsa people at all times and its full of life and enthusiasm, even at midnight. You dun get the lonliness and emptiness of city living, unlike in Singapore.

-Nice cooling weather.

Dislikes:

-Food not nice xiaolongbaos skin rock hard, and we tried many different restaurants. Noodles taste floury.

-Everything is in Chinese! I can't read!

-Way too many people, everything you do, you have to queue and wait for at least 10 people first.

Thats about it. Generally I love it there.

Ok some KTV pics.

Damm nice and spacious!




Haha short video of us singing some warm ups.

PS: I have a million videos and pictures measuring like 5 GB.. how to upload?!?!?

Fallacy

The bible says : women were created for men and pi is 3.00.

Sianz

Holidays here. So sickening everyone's busy.

Obtained Deoxys and Dakrai(hacked) today.

Going to Shanghai with Fendy and Almo On Sunday. Quite excited. But down with slight flu hope can recover before then...

Been feeling emo recently again.

Arghh Hate boring Holidays.

Physiz

Got an E for physics. Quite disappointed but sorta expected it also. Had no time to complete the paper. Should have chionged through...

Hope maths can get A.

Doom

Tomorrow receive results. Die liao.

Actually i'm sian cause school starts at 730 tomorrow.

Can't wait for this week to be over.

Checklist for June holidays

-Complete driving lessons and theory
-Complete at least 1/3 chemistry yellow book
-Complete at least 1/4 physics Prelim book
-Play lotsa pool and bowling

Seems quite impossible lol XD

stunned.

I didn't know Messenger kept all my Chat convos in the past year.

Was reading how we used to talk and laugh.

This poem is for you. Coped somewhere from the internet.

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Just Friends - Ann Marie

Sometimes I wonder if you know
Exactly how I feel
Our love is not romantic
But still is very real

You come to me when you feel bad
And everything goes wrong
Always expecting happiness
And to hear a cheery song

I sympathize and pull you close
And try to ease your pains
When the sun comes back, you are gone
‘Til the next time that it rains

I’ll always be here when you hurt
I know you know I’ll stay
But I’m not sure you’d miss me
If I ever went away

Friends in deed are a very rare find
Not too many stick it out
Through the good times and bad
Giving no cause to doubt

So don’t take that friend for granted
Tomorrow you may be alone
With no one around to help you
And pain like you’ve never known

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Lol this is too emo.

"I think chemo drugs make you more emo"
-Darren LFH (who can't read this now cause he's in the army :P)

Pokemon!!!

I want a Manaphy egg. Willing to trade legendaries: Mewtwo / Kyogre / Rayquaza / Latias / Birds/ Beasts / Regi's.

Best Live Performance of all time.